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Kehadapan Persatuan X,

Walaupun saya tahu tiada siapa pun yang akan membaca post ini, tetapi izinkan saya untuk meluahkan ketidak puasan hati saya. Sungguh, saya kecewa. Bukan untuk yang pertama kali, tapi mungkin untuk yang 3056491207497356 kalinya.

Saya SUNGGUH BENAR TERAMAT KECEWA dengan tindakan Ahli Majlis Tertinggi Persatuan X kerana:

Mereka GEMAR/SUKA  mintak tolong di saat-saat last minute dengan alasan  : "Boleh tolong tak? Kitorang takde orang dah ni? Please, please". Jujur saya cakap, kalau untuk kata tidak, saya agak rasa bersalah sebab saya percaya pada erti hidup pada memberi. Selagi mana saya boleh tolong, saya tolong. Saya juga percaya, kalau kita tolong orang, inshaAllah Allah tolong kita. Maka saya tolong tapi.....

Apa yang lebih MENGECEWAKAN setelah apa yang kita tolong/buat langsung tidak dihargai/ ditolak mentah-mentah tanpa SECUBIT pun perasaan bersalah. Tambah mengecewakan, siap boleh complained :
Yang tu tak kena, yang ni tak kena, yang tu besar, yang ni kecik, yang tu bawak ke kanan, tulisan tak sesuai, saiz tak sama besar. But, excuse me, I'm not here to serve YOU! There are so many other things to do. I got classes to attend, subjects to revise!  Let me tell YOU this,I'm willing to help you or to lessen your burden but if complaining  is all YOU gonna do, might as well you do it on your own. Frankly speaking, I'm tired. I'm tired of all your "so-called-ethics of working", your "most-honourable-protocols" and what not. Don't you ever question why some people chose not to be with YOU, because now I also already knew the answers.

iStress, iDisappointed, iRestMyCase. *hands up*

Rejuvenate.

Assalamualaikum.


Back again here, finally. Rejuvenating everything; the blog's layout ( Kudos to the big sister, Along for making this super dull gloomy blog more lively again), the spirit,the soul and most importantly, the Iman. Few months left as a Sophomore as a medical student here in Alexandria,InshaAllah. Time flies so fast that I could not even remember what I have been doing during this year when finally I'm reaching towards its end already. That means, few more days towards final examination, and soon towards Malaysia,Biiznillah. So basically, nothing much to share here but I just want to share some of my 10 cents regarding examination. What I've been observing so far, people will always stressed out whenever it comes to examination ( since Alexandria University is always having examination compared to others here in Egypt). 


Some of my prior observations during examination week:


-Exam Fever Campaign will be launched, where majority of us will change their default picture on the social network to whatever related exam stuffs.


-We ( because it happens also to me sometimes) are so stressed out thinking about tons of modules to be digested and we tend to forget our obligations towards the One who is actually going to grant us success or failure. Or maybe, we become closer towards Him during this time only. Eg: Waking up for Tahajjud, performing the Solat Sunat, and reading the Al- Quran more frequent than other days. Why? It is so hard for us to be Istiqamah,isn't it?  This is something for us to ponder upon.


-Maybe we become closer towards the Creator but how about our obligations towards our circle of friends? Do we really care about them during these days or we just go focusing merely on our books?


'Indignity is put over them wherever they may be, except when under a covenant (of protection) from Allah, and a covenant from men; they have drawn on themselves the Wrath of Allah and destitution is put over them'....( 3:112)
Or in a simple words, I shall say Habluminallah, Habluminnas.


Quoting several friend's status on facebook:

~Sahabat-sahabat, JANGAN kita menjadi HAMBA EXAM.

~Study untuk exam atau study kerana Allah? Sebenarnya, tidak timbul pertembungan antara kedua-dua perkara tersebut kerana EXAM adalah KEPERLUAN, AKHIRAT ialah TUJUAN.

So, it is well said right? So examination is actually a part of our life. For me personally, the true examination is during the Day of Judgement; Jannah or Hell (Nauzubillah) What is far most important is, we should strive, and give our best and leave the rest up to Him.

Tawwakul is not an act of the limbs—it is an act of the heart.  And so while the limbs are striving hard, the heart is completely reliant on Allah.  This means whatever the outcome of the limbs’ striving, the heart will be completely satisfied, knowing that it is the flawless decision of Allah.

But in order to reach this level, one must hold on to hope, strive with the limbs, and let go with the heart- Yasmin Mogahed. 

For complete story, you can read it here.

And that shall end my dull boring post. Till then! Let us together muhasabah ourselves towards a better Moslem inshaAllah :)

              Al- Farabi's study room and with my favourite people; The place where I went through                                my Ups and Downs. Missing them and memories beyond it :')

Alive

YEAH, I'M STILL ALIVE BUT I'M INVISIBLE.

Feel like knocking the keyboard all of sudden. 5 more exams to go before being a sophomore,inshaAllah. Then Malaysia here I come!

So many things to share but I just don't know on how to put them into words. Maybe some other time.

ALL THE VERY VERY BEST ALEXANDRIANS.

Dusty Dust.

Another 3 days to go, then it will be exactly 2 months I've been surviving here in Egypt. Am I really surviving? Oh yes I do :) And because of that, I decided to write at least, something here. Frankly speaking, I didn't know what to write .So much to tell but somehow it had disappeared from my mind. Isn't that normal? HAHA. So just a quick updates here from Alexandria :)

~I just finished my Module 2 examination which was like -.- I've done my very best and just let Allah do the rest ;)

~I'm having a one week holiday so yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! :)) I'm going to spend every minutes to the fullest before the next module begin next week.

~If you asked me about Alexandria,there's nothing much I can say. It just like living in the middle of Kuala Lumpur with a massive traffic jam and non-stop hon. Except on Friday morning. You will feel like the whole Alex is yours sbb org Arab cuti tak bangun pagi. HAHA.

~Winter's coming and its getting colder and colder and I'm shiveringggggggggggggggg! Take note, weight gain is a must during winter so I'm so scared. -.-

~Counting days for the Eid Adha and for the first time I'm going to celebrate it here :(

~Im craving for Malaysian dishes, where can I get them? To be specific, char keow teaw pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee! KSP tak sedap, dah la mahal. LOL.

Till then because my mind is about to freeze now. Okay, saja hyper-bola. :)

Less Than 6 hours Left

Semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan, I'm hoping for a good start, InshaAllah. Do pray for me people, thank you :)

How Far Along

The very last time I did my TO-DO LIST was a month ago on 2nd August 2010. Today, approximately one month had passed by, how much I've done so far?

• Polish kembali driving skill yang sangat dah teramat berhabuk! Oh mannn, I miss driving so much!-believe me or not,I haven't touched the steering since I've finished my preparation at Kuantan ,until NOW! I want to drive, pleaseeeeeee! =(
• Buat spec baru.A.S.A.P!-CHECKED!
• Pergi SEMASHUR untuk collect sijil SPM.-CHECKED, but then the certificate was not yet ready, so I just dropped by to visit my teachers and juniors.
• Belajar masak. Ni sepatutnya prioriti ni. Adoi. Malas okay!-As soon as MARA said that 1st year students are not allowed to cook, I've stopped learning. HAHA.Ish Ish Ish.
• Kemas bilik yang dah tak rupa macam bilik ni. Haiyaa!-I've been cleaning it almost everyday eh no, CERTAIN days but then, I can't see any changes. HAHAHA.
• Movie marathon! Banyak movie tak tengok masa duduk kat Cherating dulu :(-this is an endless thingy. I've been watching at least one movie per day but still, I got so many other movies to catch up. ECEH CEH!
• Study Amal study! At least sejam sehari pon takpe so that sampai sana takdelah terkejut sangat macam tak tahu apa-apa langsung! Sources dah ada, jangan cari alasan! -I've read about carbohydrate and I don't even understand a single thing and now I'm scared! -.-
• Bukak ATM A.S.A.P jugak. -CHECKED!
• Transfer gambar-gambar dalam laptop tapi kabel misplaced. Sebab tu kena kemas bilik dulu. HAHA.-CHECKED!
• Beli laptop and pendrive baru. Hard disk ke? Haha. Banyak duit!-CHECKED!
• Makan makanan Malaysia sepuas-puasnya. Haha. Teruk betul idea!-I've been craving for SUBWAY for these past few days. LAPAARRRRRRRRRRR!
• Visit kawan-kawan dekat KMB, PASUM dan UiTM. Kalau boleh nak hangout dengan diorg tapi of course lah diorg tak cuti kan. Eh lupa, Cik Pika Nadhirah pon suruh visit die kat KMS .-CHECKED but I only managed to visit PASUM. Other places,some other time maybe.
• Start kumpul sikit-sikit basic needs yang nak kena bawak ke sana. OMG! Baru sedar yang sebulan tu tak lama dahhhh! I hate packing so muchhhhhhhhhhhhh!-Almost 90% done but I'm a lazy lazier eh no laziest person to put all those stuffs in the luggage because? yes you know the answer. Because packing-is-so-not-me!
• Pre depature@ MARA on 3rd Sept. -It was not on 3rd Sept actually but yesterday so CHECKED!

Wahhhh, almost everything was done. So, for the first very time, I would like to congratulate myself because I'm able to accomplish my to-do-list though it took about a month! And I'm very very proud of it. :)

psst ;InshaAllah,my flight details are as follows:

Date : 16 September 2010

Time: 1.30 am

Destination: KL-Cairo

Airlines: Egypt Air

I'm going to appreciate every clock's tickling because only 2 weeks left! Gah!

Amazing People :)

In my life, I've met some amazing people who've forever changed me. I don't know how much they helped me on days when I've felt discouraged, uncertain, or simply blue. It could be their grins, their words, their examples, or their real kindness that pulled me through. How much I appreciate them, I'm not sure they will ever understand. I LOVE THEM,SO MUCH <3!

Coolest Place on Earth :D

If I were asked, what is the coolest place on Earth? Surely I will say CHERATING BAY RESORT (KIBA 2010)! :D

Although I was quite reluctant to stay there before this, now its hard to admit that I MISS KIBA SO MUCH! Betullah orang Melayu cakap, bila dah tak ada depan mata baru rasa kehilangan. Few things that I miss the most ;

~Kawad petang-petang bersama jurulatih dan lawak-lawak mereka : En Rahim,Pokya,En Bukhari dengan En Nazri.

`Awak ni kawad macam ape? Macam taik!'

~Kelas yang penuh dengan gelak ketawa, suka ria, nyanyi-nyanyi, berlakon. Macam dah takde gaya orang amek medic dah. Haiyaa, mcm mana lah bile sampai Alex nanti eh? Harap-harap semua okay. Ameen.

~Kedai-kedai di tepi pantai Cherating dan kedai pakcik burger. Sedap weyh!

~Stay up tengok WC especially masa Germany lawan Spain and masa final dengan ahli-ahli bilik 150!

~Preparation untuk mukhayyam 1&2, stay up sampai pagi untuk siapkan pameran, lakonan, nasyid and etc.

Tu lah kot yang paling dirindui setakat ni. Rindu jugak dekat Ust Muin, Ust Asnawi, Ust Kamel, Ust Rashimi, Ust Razak, Ustzh Bushra dengan Ustzh Aida.T hanks 4 everything ya ayuhai muhadirun :)

Finally, habis pon KIBA. So sekarang ialah sesi melepak dan meronggeng selama sebulan di rumah :D Eh, tak! tipu! Banyak benda nak kena buat lah. Siapa kata boleh ronggeng?

TO-DO LIST (It is compulsory to be accomplished!)

• Polish kembali driving skill yang sangat dah teramat berhabuk! Oh mannn, I miss driving so much!
• Buat spec baru.A.S.A.P!
• Pergi SEMASHUR untuk collect sijil SPM.
• Belajar masak. Ni sepatutnya prioriti ni. Adoi. Malas okay!
• Kemas bilik yang dah tak rupa macam bilik ni. Haiyaa!
• Movie marathon! Banyak movie tak tengok masa duduk kat Cherating dulu :(
• Study amal study! At least sejam sehari pon takpe so that sampai sana takdelah terkejut sangat macam tak tahu apa-apa langsung! Sources dah ade,jangan cari alasan!
• Bukak ATM A.S.A.P jugak.
• Transfer gambar-gambar dalam laptop tapi kabel misplaced. Sebab tu kena kemas bilik dulu. HAHA.
• Beli laptop and pendrive baru. Hard disk ke? Haha.Banyak duit!
• Makan makanan Malaysia sepuas-puasnya. Haha.Teruk betul idea!
• Visit kawan-kawan dekat KMB, PASUM dan UiTM. Kalau boleh nak hangout dengan diorg tapi of course lah diorg tak cuti kan. Eh lupe, Cik Pika Nadhirah pon suruh visit dia kat KMS.
• Start kumpul sikit-sikit basic needs yang nak kena bawak ke sana. OMG! Baru sedar yang sebulan tu tak lama dahhhh! I hate packing so muchhhhhhhhhhhhh!
• Pre depature@ MARA on 3rd Sept.

Tu je lah kot. Doakan saya berjaya dengan cemerlangnya untuk merealisasikan semua senarai di atas ye. Hahahahaha.

Teringat pesan Ustaz Fajuri semalam,

`Ada sebab kenapa Allah pilih kita pegi Mesir, bukannya UK, Ireland, Australia, USA. Mesir ni dunia ilmu dan dunia para Anbiya'. Kalau datang sini,insyaAllah dapat berkat dan dapat ilmu. Tapi kalau negara lain,dapat ilmu juga tapi berkat tu belum tentu'.

Lets hope and pray for the best.InsyaAllah :)